R1P2 - Day 9 - Lessons Learned

Today is a good, last night was tough and I have a couple regrets but lessons learned. Yesterday was a tough day for me, I was really hungry most of the day and tempted by so much. I tried drinking more water, eating my snack a little earlier and even walked 15 mins on the treadmill for distraction. I guess it was the grilled pork chops and mac & cheese I cooked for my family that was the issue. It's like a drug, a serious addiction and I have come to realize that every day of my life will be a struggle and its up to me to make a difference. The vicious cycle of over eating, binging, indulging in things that will only make me feel worse and depressed later has stopped. Although as I mentioned I do have some regrets, I did have a glass of wine. It was so yummy and I was very relaxed, it felt great. I'm not a big drinker and usually only have an occasional glass of wine on date night :)
I think after that one glass, I was drunk. Lol It's funny how the effects of something can take a toll on your body, your healthy detoxed body at that. After that, I was out like a light and missed my 9:30 pm drops :( another regret. I woke up around midnight and downed a bottle of water and went back to bed, figured I would just start over in the morning. As this has all settled in now and I realize that it was OK and today is another day. I was actually proud of myself for a minute and felt like I won. After all I could have ate that box of girl scout cookies in my pantry. Lol The will power to have a glass of wine over carbs, sugar or starches is a huge step for me. Eventually over time it will get better and I will continue to make healthier choices. I know that there is a possibility that I will run into a slight stall now with my weightloss but overall, today is day 9 and I am down a total of 12.2 pounds. This experience is nothing I have ever done before but have learned so much about myself, my lifestyle and the choices that I made and continue to make on a daily basis. Lessons learned is what makes me a stronger person and I will keep moving forward to beat this addiction that I fight every day.